Self Rivalry

May 5, 2007


The enemy everywhere I look
Where are those who I call friends?
Make like friends to put the sucker on a hook
To their persuasive words, the will bends
Did I lose them all, even in myself?

No one to look to, or to reach out and grab
Believing everything I say is true
Once I turn my back I feel a painful stab
I look back to find it is someone new
It is my own mirror image, in the flesh

I can’t be so pliant to the thoughts of man
The thoughts of man only deceive
I will only bend as hot iron to God’s plan
When I ask of man what do I receive?
Nothing

I am Man as well with all the weaknesses
Trust from me doesn’t even belong to myself
When darkside sees God’s wrath, he confesses
But dishonesty brings the opposite of wealth
Get away with it now, die later

All are born as their own enemy
Mind and body work together for my demise
Only my Creator can bring me to serenity
While I leap into darkside’s compromise
Lord Saboeth, avenge me of myself

Ignorantly asking for the enemy to die
When we do not realize the reality
That we ourselves aren’t the best ally
It isn’t always the Devil’s ways of faulty
He has already been defeated

Christ’s blood saved me from Satan
My job is to defuse my darkside
Although I will need help
From He who is most capable
Thank you, Abba Jehovah


Luckily, I recorded when I originally wrote this one. At this point in my life, I was really... um, fighting with myself or struggling, between me(good) and me(bad). No, I'm not crazy, I was just on the edge of two deciscions, two paths for my life. And now I don't want to tell you anymore so that's it.