Mental

April 5, 2007

they come in large amounts
Born in my mind
For all eternity it counts
Making everyone who tries blind.
Everything wants to enter the gates
You can't see any of them
I can feel it as it dissipates
Into my mind which shines like a gem.

No one knows how it feels
Fighting and warding off the eels
Of the demonic world that wants to go hither,
Only the Son can smite them, making me light as a feather

There's that girl who sits on my frontal lobe,
Making me blind to the rest of the globe,
How does it change so fast?
Jumping forward to forget the past?

I'd like to walk away,
forget everything she thinks we had,
Come back to the world and play,
And get rid of the things that make me mad.

Talk to the right girl and forget the wrong,
She still exists when I wished she did not,
She might've liked me, but not for long,
In the middle of good and evil, I feel caught.

These secret things stay secret
Why they stay covered,
I don't know, it's like a blanket,
In and out in and out, it never ends.

In the middle of my expression
I told you a deep confession,
I don't know why
I wish I could sprout wings and just fly

So many cares, so many burdens
I lift them up to You O Lord,
So my greatest fears can't take over
And make me mental.

One More to Drown My Sorrow

October 26, 2007

Why does such an emotion exist?
Birthed out of what seems so great,
Suffocating me with what I must resist
Such an emotion I hate to contemplate

I had Happiness before
It comes and goes as it pleases,
Make up your mind instead of going through the door,
I only feel you as October breezes.

Do you want my heart or not?
I cut my chest so you don't have to rip,
Opened wide, I'll give you a free shot
Stop staring and take it, just don't slip.

You leave me here to die bleeding
After I ripped my heart out for you,
All you had to do was respond to my pleading,
But you stepped on it with a spiked shoe

Now I wrestle this thing called sorrow
While the joy of my spirit I've tried to preserve,
I question happiness's existence tomorrow,
Is it truly something I deserve?